Can meditation change your life?
asked 2015-02-05 10:13:09 -0500

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I'm in a difficult point in my life where bad actions and mistakes and being played out, my bad karmas and sins are catching up with me and the consequences of them is gruelling. I truly regret so much and have been trying to turn towards GuruJi as much as I can, however it seems like bad things keep happening as a result of my mistakes and sins so I began to have suicidal thoughts. I did an Ardas saying to WaheGuruJi that I want to die and had a plan in mind but I asked if WaheguruJi could protect my family, I then took a cyber Hukumnama, which told me that,
"The True Guru's Will does not enter into his consciousness, and so he wanders around, pursuing his own interests" MahrajJi then went onto saying "Those beings are wise who meditate on the Lord." And "O Nanak they are purified, bathing in the sacred shrine of the Lord." (There was more to the Hukumnama but those were the most striking parts - Raag Sorath Guru Raam Daas Ji Ang 652,653)
I'm just wondering can meditation really stop the consequences of my actions from playing out? How do I get away from being Manmukh? Please if anyone knows this Shabad or can understand it or how to alleviate my situation please answer this question.
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