Can't let go
asked 2015-01-26 13:07:39 -0600

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I recently made loads of mistakes and made bad choices which have resulted in some difficult consequences, the weight of the regret and guilt and sadness have been crushing at times but now I have began to move on. However there are people in my family who are not so forgiving and instead are holding me to my mistakes and it feels like being trapped in this Dukh. I know I have sinned and I will never forgive myself for what I have done and the effect it's had on my family but I feel like I don't deserve to be made an example or to be kept down? I'm no way saying that I deserve forgiveness but I've been racked with guilt for so long I just want to move on, I'm fairly young and the people who arent letting it go are old. I just wanted to ask if this is right? I'm not condoning my actions but i feel I've had a fair bit of punishment. I just want to move on but it feels I'm not being allowed to? Does Mahraj Ji allow people to act like this as punishment?
Please forgive any mistakes I've made and please share any opinions because I can't keep going over it in my head again and again.