I feel stuck
Everything feels weird an strange .I don’t feel normal . Idk what to do , i don’t know what’s causing it . I can’t find words to explain how I’m feeling . Idk What’s causing it . It all started with me feeling dizzy and like passing out .. and now so many weird mental things . I told one of my friend and they said never heard of that before . One of my other friends told me that o was acting weird (when I was expressing how I feel ) . It does sound stupid tbh. The days when it was so worse I would wake up crying cuz of the bad anxiety and how strange everything felt and almost died due to sleep deprivation . I wouldn’t feel like myself . I still don’t . And that time when I was crying my parents assumed i was depressed or something.and they yelled at me . I’m not depressed. Idek what’s wrong anymore . Like I can’t explain that’s the problem .! Idk how to get help or from where . I’m definitely not telling my parents about how I feel (lot of reasons4 that) .. U know how there is something physically wrong with someone and there is mentally . I feel like there is something spiritually wrong with me . Idk I’m just kidding . All Rn I have is my consciousness, I know something is wrong I have not been feeling the same . It’s painful .. like idk how to explain it doesn’t physically. For example if u don’t have the ability to see , ur eyes r not hurting physically but not seeing is painful .
One of the things I feel is I feel stuck in the universe. Like I wanna get outta of universe , but where .. idk . The other thing I feel is I feel separated from my body . Which I was googling my symptoms is depersonalization disorder o whatever . Everything has changed . Nothing is the same anymore .
There is a chance that’s something is physically wrong with my brain b/c since all this started with physical symptoms idk man .. I feel half alive and half dead as if some part of my brain is missing .
I can’t tell my parents about the mental thing cuz either they r gonna laugh or say I have gone crazy . I mean who wouldn’t after hearing how I have feeling .
I m still the same person I just don’t feel okay ;(
I’m sorry for posting this again .. last time it sounded like I was depressed which ehhh idk
I kinda used to be “depressed” for stupid reasons . Now I look back my life was actually really good ;-;
Can someone tell me if having a crush on someone could do such thing .? I used to thing of this guy 24/7 (who didn’t like me ) and then i stopped and then this thing happened. As I rmeber when the first time I felt like something ...
