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Everything feels weird an strange .I don’t feel normal . Idk what to do , i don’t know what’s causing it . I can’t find words to explain how I’m feeling . Idk What’s causing it . It all started with me feeling dizzy and like passing out .. and now so many weird mental things . I told one of my friend and they said never heard of that before . One of my other friends told me that o was acting weird (when I was expressing how I feel ) . It does sound stupid tbh. The days when it was so worse I would wake up crying cuz of the bad anxiety and how strange everything felt and almost died due to sleep deprivation . I wouldn’t feel like myself . I still don’t . And that time when I was crying my parents assumed i was depressed or something.and they yelled at me . I’m not depressed. Idek what’s wrong anymore . Like I can’t explain that’s the problem .! Idk how to get help or from where . I’m definitely not telling my parents about how I feel (lot of reasons4 that) .. U know how there is something physically wrong with someone and there is mentally . I feel like there is something spiritually wrong with me . Idk I’m just kidding . All Rn I have is my consciousness, I know something is wrong I have not been feeling the same . It’s painful .. like idk how to explain it doesn’t physically. For example if u don’t have the ability to see , ur eyes r not hurting physically but not seeing is painful .

One of the things I feel is I feel stuck in the universe. Like I wanna get outta of universe , but where .. idk . The other thing I feel is I feel separated from my body . Which I was googling my symptoms is depersonalization disorder o whatever . Everything has changed . Nothing is the same anymore .

There is a chance that’s something is physically wrong with my brain b/c since all this started with physical symptoms idk man .. I feel half alive and half dead as if some part of my brain is missing .

I can’t tell my parents about the mental thing cuz either they r gonna laugh or say I have gone crazy . I mean who wouldn’t after hearing how I have feeling .

I m still the same person I just don’t feel okay ;(

I’m sorry for posting this again .. last time it sounded like I was depressed which ehhh idk

I kinda used to be “depressed” for stupid reasons . Now I look back my life was actually really good ;-;

Can someone tell me if having a crush on someone could do such thing .? I used to thing of this guy 24/7 (who didn’t like me ) and then i stopped and then this thing happened. As I rmeber when the first time I felt like something was happening to me (I was “passing out” o whatever ) I was thinking about him . I don’t think it could happen but - :( .

My parents logic if I would try to tell them anything- (I’m never going to nor I have guts) - it’s something mental mhm means depression mhmhm means a boyfriend mhmhm ..smh

So like God had turned his back on me :/ but u know I’m trying ... b/c no one else can help me ;-; . I feel so embarrassed. So like last summer we were in an airplane and it started lightening outside badly and I thought we were all gonna die . I was so scared and I started doing paath and said to god that I will wake up every morning and do paath if u save me . And I have said that several times at several occasions .

Also I did suck horrible sins I wish I could tell what they were . I feel stupid now for doing them . And ugh idk .

Everything feels weird an strange .I don’t feel normal . Idk what to do , i don’t know what’s causing it . I can’t find words to explain how I’m feeling . Idk What’s causing it . It all started with me feeling dizzy and like passing out .. and now so many weird mental things . I told one of my friend and they said never heard of that before . One of my other friends told me that o was acting weird (when I was expressing how I feel ) . It does sound stupid tbh. The days when it was so worse I would wake up crying cuz of the bad anxiety and how strange everything felt and almost died due to sleep deprivation . I wouldn’t feel like myself . I still don’t . And that time when I was crying my parents assumed i was depressed or something.and they yelled at me . I’m not depressed. Idek what’s wrong anymore . Like I can’t explain that’s the problem .! Idk how to get help or from where . I’m definitely not telling my parents about how I feel (lot of reasons4 that) .. U know how there is something physically wrong with someone and there is mentally . I feel like there is something spiritually wrong with me . Idk I’m just kidding . All Rn I have is my consciousness, I know something is wrong I have not been feeling the same . It’s painful .. like idk how to explain it doesn’t physically. For example if u don’t have the ability to see , ur eyes r not hurting physically but not seeing is painful .

One of the things I feel is I feel stuck in the universe. Like I wanna get outta of universe , but where .. idk . The other thing I feel is I feel separated from my body . Which I was googling my symptoms is depersonalization disorder o whatever . Everything has changed . Nothing is the same anymore .

There is a chance that’s something is physically wrong with my brain b/c since all this started with physical symptoms idk man .. I feel half alive and half dead as if some part of my brain is missing .

I can’t tell my parents about the mental thing cuz either they r gonna laugh or say I have gone crazy . I mean who wouldn’t after hearing how I have feeling .

I m still the same person I just don’t feel okay ;(

I’m sorry for posting this again .. last time it sounded like I was depressed which ehhh idk

I kinda used to be “depressed” for stupid reasons . Now I look back my life was actually really good ;-;

Can someone tell me if having a crush on someone could do such thing .? I used to thing of this guy 24/7 (who didn’t like me ) and then i stopped and then this thing happened. As I rmeber when the first time I felt like something was happening to me (I was “passing out” o whatever ) I was thinking about him . I don’t think it could happen but - :( .

My parents logic if I would try to tell them anything- (I’m never going to nor I have guts) - it’s something mental mhm means depression mhmhm means a boyfriend mhmhm ..smh

So like God had turned his back on me :/ but u know I’m trying ... b/c no one else can help me ;-; . I feel so embarrassed. So like last summer we were in an airplane and it started lightening outside badly and I thought we were all gonna die . I was so scared and I started doing paath and said to god that I will wake up every morning and do paath if u save me . And I have said that several times at several occasions .

Also I did suck horrible sins I wish I could tell what they were . I feel stupid now for doing them . And ugh idk .