Nothing hurts more than this
Idek how/where to start . I was trying to get my grades up until stupid stuff started happening. Started off as me feeling like passing out to this whole universe bothering me to living in this painful stage I don’t know how to explain in words. It’s been a year ,really painful one . My parents don’t understand my pain , they assume random stuff . No-one wants to take me to a psychiatrist. Honestly I think something is neurologically wrong with my brain . But I don’t know . This is so painful and I can’t take this anymore . All my dreams have been broken and I see no future . The stuff that I have been feeling if I tell my parents they going to think I have lost my mind. And they going to be negative and make everything worse instead of giving me hope . I have a doctors appointment that my parents made cuz I have not been eating well and I told my parents I wanna go in by myself (so I can tell him what I been feeling) but my parents r like no they gonna come with me inside . I don’t know if I have the tolerance capacity anymore . It hurts to exist this constant pain , it’s not sadness it’s numb constant pain I can’t even describe in words . I hope I die soon cuz I got no will no live anymore .