Lots of things happening at once
I had a lot happen this summer. I got surgery, my basement flooded, 11 deaths, threatened by a man that he would kill me, criticized by the aunties for various reasons, doing a sort of internship so i'm working 80-100 hrs a week. I'm standing up for what's right at my workplace so people got mad at me that i'm exposing the truth of their behaviours. I was sick from the stress- vomiting, heaviness in my chest, headaches, muscle pains. I am trying to go back to basics eating well, sleeping, simran, kirtan, and connection to God. It's made a huge difference in just 3 days after two months of going downhill. It has happened all so fast i didn't get time to process things properly and release them to God. I'm finding I'm holding on because it was just so much at once. The way i'm surviving is the skills i learned previously (having gone through actually harder times than this!). Stopping my workplace internship thing is not really a viable option at present but is in the back of my mind if i absolutely need to. I am now realizing and accepting that it may take more time than i expected and to allow myself that time. Sometimes in these scenarios we get blind to being able to see clearly so I'm looking outside myself to see if anyone else here has a different perspective on moving forward and how i recover.