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I have a new problem from the last couple of months that I never had before- there are certain times of the day I just feel empty and like my life is unfulfilled. I used to be a workaholic. I filled up my life with school because I was afraid of failure. I thought if I didn’t work myself to the bone I wouldn’t do well, so I made it my #1 priority. Due to some serious stressors and other circumstances (which i'm not going to get into), i ended up needing a break from school which was really good because i was already very sick from the anxiety. I refocused my life and got better. My priority is now my health, and working towards union with Waheguru. When I spend time at the gurdwara, doing simran, kirtan, prayers, etc. I am whole and fulfilled. My spirituality and health are better than they have been in my whole life... yet I am empty and I don't understand. I'm trying to avoid spending time worrying like i used to, and just study as needed. My schoolwork requires concentration so I can’t really focus and listen to things but if it’s easy stuff then I just listen to simran. Yet when i'm studying now i feel empty and like i'm wasting away my life. (I love this field, so its not really about my career choice.) A part of me is saying that this emptiness is the fact that my work isn’t my life- so when my body is tired and wants to sleep, my mind says- “no keep working!” But i know that its wrong, so i am sticking by trying to focus on what my body needs.

Maybe it’s the fact that I’m extroverted and need people but I’m pretty much isolated right now. I don’t feel like spending time with my friends -a few of my close friends moved away, and the rest are “workaholics” like I was so i don't have an interest in seeing them. I just feel really tired/run down from doing this day after day- I wake up in the morning and instead of being excited, I think “oh great another day of studying.” (Right now i'm back to studying only, but the practical part of my schooling re-starts in just a week). I'm not really looking forward to anything unless it's sunday or wednesday and i get to go to the gurdwara and sit in sangat. lately i've been going every evening to listen to kirtan, but my work schedule (i'm working as part of the practical training for my schooling) is out of my control and soon i will be scheduled to work on sundays/evenings and i won't be able to go as much so i'm really scared the one thing i'm excited for is going to be gone. I really think is that this emptiness is a longing to be closer to God and I don’t know what to do about it...Any advice?

I have a new problem from the last couple of months that I never had before- there are certain times of the day I just (usually when I'm studying or in between tasks), I feel empty and like my life is unfulfilled.

I used to be a workaholic. I filled up my life with school because I was afraid of failure. I thought if I didn’t work myself to the bone I wouldn’t do well, so I made it my #1 priority. Due to some serious stressors and other circumstances (which i'm not going to get into), stressors/other stuff, i ended up needing a break from school which was really good because i was already very sick from the anxiety. I refocused my life and got better. My priority is now my health, and working towards union with Waheguru. When I spend time at the gurdwara, doing simran, kirtan, prayers, etc. I am whole and fulfilled. My spirituality and health are better than they have been in my whole life... yet I am empty and I don't understand. I'm trying to avoid spending time worrying like i used to, and just study as needed. not happy. My schoolwork requires concentration so I can’t really focus and listen to things but if it’s easy stuff then I just listen to simran. Yet when i'm studying now i feel empty and like i'm wasting away my life. (I love this field, so its not really about my career choice.) paath at the same time. A part of me is saying that this emptiness is the fact that my work isn’t my life- so when my body is tired and wants to sleep, my mind says- “no keep working!” But i know that its wrong, so i am sticking by trying to focus on what my body needs.

Maybe it’s the fact that I’m extroverted and need people I love being around people, but I’m pretty much isolated right now. I don’t feel like spending time with my friends -a few of my close friends have moved away, away and the rest are “workaholics” workaholics like I was so i don't have an interest in seeing them. was. I just feel really tired/run down from doing this day after day- I wake up in the morning and instead of being excited, I think “oh great another day of studying.” (Right now i'm back to studying only, but the practical part of my schooling re-starts in just not excited about the day, although i do a week). prayer of thanks to God. I'm not really looking forward to anything unless it's sunday or wednesday and i get to go to the gurdwara and sit in sangat. lately i've been going every evening to listen to kirtan, but my work schedule (i'm working as part of the practical training for my schooling) is out of my control and soon i will be scheduled to work on sundays/evenings and i won't be able to go as much so go. i'm really scared the one thing i'm excited for is going to be gone. I really think is that this emptiness is a longing want to be closer to God and I don’t but I don't know what to do about it...Any else to do. Any advice?