What if you addicted to meditation?
What should you do if you start to get to much addictive to meditation.. I'm starting to really suffer from it.. my behaviour and my family It's already been for some quite while.. I thought it was good to be addicted to gurbani or did i misinterprented it..? What is the cause mainly.. of it? I read because you don't have a strict amritvela.. Is that the reason or what more..? How to overcome it and handle it? Doesn't it have to be like a habit or like an addiction ..? i feel so hopeless right now.. i read that the dangers of overmeditation are very real and i'm experiencing all those symptoms of overmeditation.. I think i might behave erratic and inappropriate i think it's really starting to have a big affect onto my health , mentally physically and i don't know how to get out of the 'circle'. it's been years now.. there exists the possibility of very real dangers to emotional, mental, and physical health with over meditation.
I have problems with my self-image, i do weep much and i have pain in my neck i feel alienated from the world and i real suffer from it.. i behave strange as well. Can I still do something about it.. will my erratic behaviour go away.. i'm scared will it still have influence on me after?
What is the main cause of addiction to gurbani? How to get 'rid' of this addiction and really start to Love GOD? Is it some sort of attachment? What does this addiction mean is it an weaknes..
Like it did not know till now well i already knew or felt something was wrong with me.. I thought first like i'm doing gurbani so nothings wrong.. but when some enters my space then i really really come upset like and when i have time it doesn't matter when i would do part.. but i didn't start to feel better i start to feel worse after then..
Can you please also explain about bairaag and the state of intoxication.. Before i thought i was doing it all wrong.. but now i feel like i addicted I hope it's not some other mental desease but i'm really suffering from my neck i can't sit still i'm very soon irritated i sleep long hours and sometimes short my diet goes from up to down i have no other interest and i really feel worthless.. i can't figure out what i have anymore i feel i'm very tighert and floating and dizzy like my hands and face and all body is like tintling.. like i don't excist or something Not only me but everything seems to suffer from it i lost my job also before.. i'm totally lost it's like starting over from point one. Does this mean that uttering gurbani is useless if your addicted to it ...