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i am a sinner, i have done a huge mistake. does god will forgive me for that ? please tell me will babaji forgive me or not ? WJKK WJKF my life has become miserable. it has been ruined it seems to me that i am even doing foolishness by asking this question but i have to share and talk with some people about it. the story is i am studying in new zealand and i am living with some other indian boys which are elder than me. i am only 18 and they all treat me like their real young brother.they were very supportive to me becoz they are my uncle's friend. what shit happened was i was only sikh boy studying in the nz government tertiary institute. i am an international student. one day a new proper sikh boy came to my college and when i saw him i greeted him. he was from village background and he was not able to cope up with nz education. he wasd underaged and he was not able to live alone so he was living with a nz family. he was not able to find any indian people around the place where he was living. whenever he met me, he started crying and say that i don't wanna live here. i helped him talk with the administration to move that guy with me but the college denied. i helped him giving by him company. i even woke up till late nights and made his assignments, spoiled my own results. explained everything to him and helped him sorting out every problem. what happened one day that two boys tell something strange about that boy like he called one of those boys and sent about 50,0000 indian rupee to his girlfriend to india and he asked his parents for sending money to him for his own expenses which he sent to his GF. i didn't believe those guys but then i think that its his personal life he can do whatever he wants. i was sharing everything with him, he said that now he can live alone and he is going to get a house on rent where he will be living with some other students, he insist me to live with him but i said bro i am happy in the place where i am living but i am having some issues with my flatmates and i shared evrything with him. he was constantly requesting me to live with him and i refused by saying that i will see. one day he was teasing my by saying that you are rich, you are earning money by doing various things, we were having fun. he was constantly teasing me and in joke i also said to him that you are more richer than me as you can send a huge amount to your gf. he said to me that who told you, i haven't done that and then i just spoke out the names of that two boys. at that time i was not knowing that how cheap that boy would be. he started living with some other punjabi boys who were addicted to various drugs and alcohol and i don't talk with those guys as thy have ruined their future by becomin addicted and by cutting their hair. my first semester ended when i go back to college for attending the next semester i was shocked to see that my friend got his hair cut. i said to him what have you done, he said its my life. then he started fighting with me by saying that i have talked to those two boys who told u about sending money to india and they have said that they haven't said anything like that. those guys called me and started using abusive language for me and my cutting sikh friend said to me that "e sab tu apne vallo keha e, m teri pagg siro laakey daadi patt k hath wich de danga, mere nal ladai kar, m tenu kuttanga" ladai karan nu m v kar sakda c but sadi white people aggey ki reoutation reh jandi, m nz eh sab kam karan ni aya. je m ladeya ta immigration visa problems create krdegi and goreyan aggey ki izzat reh jandi ? he gave me warning that he will bully me and nothing wrong will happen with him as he is underaged. the thing is i am not scared but i don't want to fight because i am conscious about my future. that fucking boy spread every where that jaskaran is fedup from his flatmates and now he is moving to another place. when my flatmates came to know about that, they scolded me and said that they will get me out of the home. i beg to them said sorry, cried infront of them and then they allowed to remain me in the house. when i discussed to them that that boy is trying to bully me then they said that njodon't worry we will call him and when they call him that boy was drunk and said that jASkaran sid wrong things about you guys that he is fed up and all. i have said that but my flatmates are very very nice guys they have helped me a lot. to proove them i just placed my hands on the gutka sahib of nitnem and in frustration i said that i haven't said anything like that. i just said a lie by putting my hand on the gutka sahib. all this i done in frustration on the occassion of guru harkrishan's gurupurab. then that cutting boy came to me with some other drunk boys and also with those two boys who have told me about transferring money. those two boys denied and started saying abusive words to me that cutting boy whom i helped a lot started fighting with me by holding my collar. on sundAy those guys gather around the gurudwara and make fun of me. mera gueudwara jana tak mushkil kita hoya e enna ne.

will babaji foirgive me for taking false sweare ? will my flatmates will become friendly to me as they were ? why this happened the guy whom i helped was a bludy dog ? will everything normal ? will i able to get mind rest. as ai am tensed ?

please help me babaji forgive me...