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Hi, My name is Melissa. Writing this is quite difficult for me as I feel ashamed of what I'm going to say right now. I have left my Guru quite while ago, I was confused and I didn't know what to do I was quit .. My question now is that if you don't have anymore answers left and you want to become one with your guru again then please tell me what I have to do, because i'm wandering around through my doubts continually and It's killing me I have Left My most Trenmendiscious and Beautiful Lord Please forgive my mistakes an in any writings of this. HElp, help, help me please to destroy me enemies. With much love, to this great and doing good deeds, keep u work Melissa I feel I'm continually beaten, I feel emtional wreck, I cannot do any good deeds, I have done more harm to anything and everything then I personally wanted or experienced I feel I'm in a unknowing state continiue, and I want harmony with my God back again as I have so much troubling with my oneself, innerself I cannot do anything at all, I feel powerless and i do no the differnce between good and bad, i have done more bad then i wanted and now i feel it's to late, i feel I am dum and a real stupid idiot that i have left the one and only thing that is really beautiful, iw wish I could go back reading my nitnem everyday but i have really , till my most regreat i have left it over and over for so many times and now i feel im standing nailed on the ground, idont know where to go run with my emotions as i connot control them and its making everything worse! its really ridiculious i want to go back on the good way, now and make a change as i am really confused i feel i cannot choose between right and wrong as i don know the difference so i cannot perform good deeds as i don know anymore what is is? help me please to find way, step by step i can get there , please forgive once more for the chaos. With Sincerity, Melissa

Hi, My name is Melissa. Writing this is quite difficult for me as I feel ashamed of what I'm going to say right now. I have left my Guru quite while ago, I was confused and I didn't know what to do I was quit .. My question now is that if you don't have anymore answers left and you want to become one with your guru again then please tell me what I have to do, because i'm wandering around through my doubts continually and It's killing me I have Left My most Trenmendiscious and Beautiful Lord Please forgive my mistakes an in any writings of this. HElp, help, help me please to destroy me enemies. With much love, to this great and doing good deeds, keep u work Melissa I feel I'm continually beaten, I feel emtional wreck, I cannot do any good deeds, I have done more harm to anything and everything then I personally wanted or experienced I feel I'm in a unknowing state continiue, and I want harmony with my God back again as I have so much troubling with my oneself, innerself I cannot do anything at all, I feel powerless and i do no the differnce between good and bad, i have done more bad then i wanted and now i feel it's to late, i feel I am dum and a real stupid idiot that i have left the one and only thing that is really beautiful, iw wish I could go back reading my nitnem everyday but i have really , till my most regreat i have left it over and over for so many times and now i feel im standing nailed on the ground, idont know where to go run with my emotions as i connot control them and its making everything worse! its really ridiculious i want to go back on the good way, now and make a change as i am really confused i feel i cannot choose between right and wrong as i don know the difference so i cannot perform good deeds as i don know anymore what is is? help me please to find way, step by step i can get there , please forgive once more for the chaos. With Sincerity, Melissa

Writing this is quite difficult for me as I feel ashamed of what I'm going to say right now. I have left my Guru quite while ago, I was confused and I didn't know what to do I was quit .. My question now is that if you don't have anymore answers left and you want to become one with your guru again then please tell me what I have to do, because i'm wandering around through my doubts continually and It's killing me I have Left My most Trenmendiscious and Beautiful Lord Please forgive my mistakes an in any writings of this. HElp, help, help me please to destroy me enemies. With much love, to this great and doing good deeds, keep u work Melissa I feel I'm continually beaten, I feel emtional wreck, I cannot do any good deeds, I have done more harm to anything and everything then I personally wanted or experienced I feel I'm in a unknowing state continiue, and I want harmony with my God back again as I have so much troubling with my oneself, innerself I cannot do anything at all, I feel powerless and i do no the differnce between good and bad, i have done more bad then i wanted and now i feel it's to late, i feel I am dum and a real stupid idiot that i have left the one and only thing that is really beautiful, iw wish I could go back reading my nitnem everyday but i have really , till my most regreat i have left it over and over for so many times and now i feel im standing nailed on the ground, idont know where to go run with my emotions as i connot control them and its making everything worse! its really ridiculious i want to go back on the good way, now and make a change as i am really confused i feel i cannot choose between right and wrong as i don know the difference so i cannot perform good deeds as i don know anymore what is is? help me please to find way, step by step i can get there , please forgive once more for the chaos. With Sincerity, Melissa

Writing this is quite difficult for me as I feel ashamed of what I'm going to say right now. I have left my Guru quite while ago, I was confused and I didn't know what to do I was quit .. My question now is that if you don't have anymore answers left and you want to become one with your guru again then please tell me what I have to do, because i'm wandering around through my doubts continually and It's killing me I have Left My most Trenmendiscious and Beautiful Lord Please forgive my mistakes an in any writings of this. HElp, help, help me please to destroy me enemies. With much love, to this great and doing good deeds, keep u work Melissa I feel I'm continually beaten, I feel emtional wreck, I cannot do any good deeds, I have done more harm to anything and everything then I personally wanted or experienced I feel I'm in a unknowing state continiue, and I want harmony with my God back again as I have so much troubling with my oneself, innerself I cannot do anything at all, I feel powerless and i do no the differnce between good and bad, i have done more bad then i wanted and now i feel it's to late, i feel I am dum and a real stupid idiot that i have left the one and only thing that is really beautiful, iw wish I could go back reading my nitnem everyday but i have really , till my most regreat i have left it over and over for so many times and now i feel im standing nailed on the ground, idont know where to go run with my emotions as i connot control them and its making everything worse! its really ridiculious i want to go back on the good way, now and make a change as i am really confused i feel i cannot choose between right and wrong as i don know the difference so i cannot perform good deeds as i don know anymore what is is? help me please to find way, step by step i can get there , please forgive once more for the chaos.

Writing this is quite difficult for me as I feel ashamed of what I'm going to say right now. I have left my Guru quite while ago, I was confused and I didn't know what to do I was quit .. My question now is that if you don't have anymore answers left and you want to become one with your guru again then please tell me what I have to do, because i'm wandering around through my doubts continually and It's killing me I have Left My most Trenmendiscious and Beautiful Lord Please forgive my mistakes an in any writings of this. HElp, help, help me please to destroy me enemies. With much love, to this great and doing good deeds, keep u work I feel I'm continually beaten, I feel emtional wreck, I cannot do any good deeds, I have done more harm to anything and everything then I personally wanted or experienced I feel I'm in a unknowing state continiue, and I want harmony with my God back again as I have so much troubling with my oneself, innerself I cannot do anything at all, I feel powerless and i do no the differnce between good and bad, i have done more bad then i wanted and now i feel it's to late, i feel I am dum and a real stupid idiot that i have left the one and only thing that is really beautiful, iw wish I could go back reading my nitnem everyday but i have really , till my most regreat i have left it over and over for so many times and now i feel im standing nailed on the ground, idont know where to go run with my emotions as i connot control them and its making everything worse! its really ridiculious i want to go back on the good way, now and make a change as i am really confused i feel i cannot choose between right and wrong as i don know the difference so i cannot perform good deeds as i don know anymore what is is? help me please to find way, step by step i can get there , please forgive once more for the chaos.