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I have struggled for months to formulate what my problem is, what is my question. And now I finally understand what it comes down to. I am not understanding how to let go of what was my dream, illusion, etc. whatever you want to call it- my image of what I wanted, and accept what is reality- Hukam. I need to let go of my constant hoping and wishing, and just accept that it isnt happening. It has been so long of just trying to convince myself, telling myself I need to surrender, I need to accept, but I'm not. In the back of my mind I am still hopeful. any tips on how to get out of this daily loop?

I have struggled for months to formulate what my problem is, what is my question. And now I finally understand what it comes down to. I am not understanding how to let go of what was my dream, illusion, etc. whatever you want to call it- my image of what I wanted, and accept what is reality- Hukam. I need to let go of my constant hoping and wishing, and just accept that it isnt happening. It has been so long of just trying to convince myself, telling myself I need to surrender, I need to accept, but I'm not. In the back of my mind I am still hopeful. any tips on how to get out of this daily loop?