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It’s been almost a year of constant suffering and idk what to do . I think I have depersonalization-de realization but idk. I don’t know I don’t care , I just want to be Normal again . I feel as if I was like this my entire life , I forgot how it feels to be normal . Universe is bothering me , I can’t recognize myself , can’t focus on studies , it hurts to exist , it’s so painful and I’m so tired . There is no specific cure for this (if it’s depersonalization)and I have read some people living with this condition for so long. I can’t tolerate anymore . I just want to be normal . Why is god giving me all this pain . Why does he hate me so much ? I tell myself I’m strong , and I try my best but ... the pain has gotten far beyond my tolerance level. Waheguru jio, I don’t want to live like this . If this pain is not going to go away , can I die and suffer somewhere else . Cause I can’t see my parnets seeing me in pain and failing in life (they don’t know anything, and i can’t function , can’t study , I won’t be able to get a job if I don’t get better, no one would marry me )

I never thought such thing would ever happen to me . I m just living in vain . Everything in my life is so perfect but I can’t experience the happiness due to this pain .

If I start praying eveyday in the morning can I get better? I really don’t see any other way out .

It’s been almost a year of constant suffering and idk what to do . I think I have depersonalization-de realization but idk. I don’t know I don’t care , I just want to be Normal again . I feel as if I was like this my entire life , I forgot how it feels to be normal . Universe is bothering me , I can’t recognize myself , can’t focus on studies , it hurts to exist , it’s so painful and I’m so tired . There is no specific cure for this (if it’s depersonalization)and I have read some people living with this condition for so long. I can’t tolerate anymore . I just want to be normal . Why is god giving me all this pain . Why does he hate me so much ? I tell myself I’m strong , and I try my best but ... the pain has gotten far beyond my tolerance level. Waheguru jio, I don’t want to live like this . If this pain is not going to go away , can I die and suffer somewhere else . Cause I can’t see my parnets seeing me in pain and failing in life (they don’t know anything, and i can’t function , can’t study , I won’t be able to get a job if I don’t get better, no one would marry me )

I never thought such thing would ever happen to me . I m just living in vain . Everything in my life is so perfect but I can’t experience the happiness due to this pain .

If I start praying eveyday in the morning can I get better? I really don’t see any other way out .