I am a sikh guy want to know a way out of sikhism
strong text I am 25 year old male, and was amrith dhari from 18 to 21 years of age, but it wasn't my decision every body from my family to my friends to my hostel mates pressured me to become AMRITDHARI SINGH. And I did it. But it didnt felt right to me. For three years I regularly did amrivele isnan, did all the 5 amritvele path, did rehras sahib and sohela sahib thinking that i would grow intrest. But I wasn't happy. Where I grew up eating JHATKA is allowed and when I went amritsar one of the Babaji told me that my amrit is khand due to consumption of meat. I told them it was JHATKA not HALAL but they still told me that I am not amritdhari any more and when i visited Hazur sahib they told me JHATKA is allowed.
So I was totally frustrated that i was living some fake live for almost three tears which seemed to me like unhappily ever after. I felt foolish for becoming AMRITDHARI as our one PANTH have different ideology over AMRIT and that too in TAKHAT sahibs one Takhat's jathedar advises you not to eat jhatka while other Takhat' jathedar says jhatka os not a problem and i can eat it being amrithdhari.
Then i tried reading SHRI GURU GRANTH SAHIB and all I understood according to my knowledge is that nothing matters not what you eat, or if you maintain sabat surat all that matters is that you live your life as humanly as possible.
So as now I came to realise that all that matters is humanity so i was wondering as you can become a sikh by amrit sanchar, is there any other way if you could just get out of sikhism without disgracing you family and can clean shave and become one with the crowd.?
as i feel being a sikh and still keeping my so called sabat surat i am living a fake life can I just ditch it all and become a normal person go totally bald cleanshave
