Help on how much Pat I should be doing and taking Amrit Questions
Waheguru Ji Ka Khalsa, Waheguru ji Ke Fateh
I have 2 questions
1) I'm 19 and got into Sikhi about a year ago, since then I've grown my Kes, decided not to trim my beard and started to do Pat and Naam simran.
I've just finished my first year at uni, but I think I spent more time doing Pat/Simran than studying. Currently its my holidays and i'm spending more time trying to do Pat/Simran. I do feel like go gym or playing Xbox, but I don't get enough time to do any of those.
Currently I do Japji Sahib, Chaupai Sahib, read the hukamana and listen to the Katha in English, Simran and watch some of the Nitnem with English meaning on Youtube. My family says that im doing way to much and should do less but im scared that if i dont some something bad will happen to me as i promised to Guru ji that i will do more. Currently I listed to the english Katha of the Hukamana sitting down, and sometimes wish to do other stuff while listening to it, but i feel that doesn't count, and feel like im breaking my promise to listen to it every day.
I wake up late about 11/12 and get out bed at 1, and i want to get up at Amrit Vela so i have more time focusing on spiritual side, but i sleep late because i havent done some of the things listed above, so i stay up late about 1-3 am and try to finish it and cant wake up early.
Should I be doing less and give more time to other things and should i be scared if i dont do some stuff?
2) I want to take Amrit and have stopped eating meat and egg recently, but i have some questions.
Do i need to do my 5 banis? or can I just do the ones i can currently do Japji Sahib and Chaupai Sahin
Also i fear that i cant take amrit because of Kaam, I try my best to stay a way from things online that add to sexual desire but fall weak, and then fell really guilty and scared. I need help on how to cope with his ?
Sorry if i have said anything wrong and this being overly long.
Waheguru.