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Nihang Ji, Guru may slap me innumerable time if that helps. He knows best. What I am looking for is 'love'. that is what I have lost. I am praying every day but it if people like you who are filled with love will pray, that will help me more.

My 'death anxiety' has purged me all of my wishes and it seems that I desire nothing. Everything seems futile. But at the same time even religion and believes are seeming to be futile. I have started doing my nitnem and listen to Gurbani most of the time but my belief is not coming back. It seems that I am just going through the motions. I know according to Sikh belief this is not 'one day' task but I need some 'sign' from Guru or God. Otherwise I am finding myself becoming atheist or agnostic as it all started when I read some of their writings. Nihang Gavinpal Singh ji took hukamnama for me but it is not helping me to get my 'belief' back. Please pray for me that Guru ji shows me some sign of hope as I have lost all my hope and am becoming depressed.

I am in great doubt and going towards depression or no hope. I have read a few atheist and agnostic views and all my believes have gone for toss. I am trying to meditate but even that is also countered by the atheist views and is mere brain process. I am longing for an answer from Guru ji as every thought that comes to my mind 'for' my believes is countered by another thought and falls down. Now this battle is not my cup of tea. I am losing.

Thanks. But currently I am full of so many questions and thoughts and I am not being able to understand much. Could you please pray for me that Guru shows me the path and satisfies my inner quest.

Actually this bout of fear comes in again and again to me. I had this realization about my mortatility very early in childhood but since then I have not got over it. And now the skeptism has come along with it that whether there is anything after death or it is just that we cease to exist just as we began to exist at birth. I know Gurbani is full of hope and have many verse to say otherwise. I have found solace many times in these words of Guru. But this time even that is not working.

If the soul doesn't die and have this knowledge because it has been through many 'deaths' already then what is there in myself that is afraid of the 'Death' ?