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Where you gone..

I also feel if there is time to die....I will readily accept it..Like I am done with this life.. I don't have much motivation in life..

When I look at life with her with no social pressure or judgements I am at peace and I feel I will be happy loving someone..but I can't leave this country also cause my parents are alone and getting old...I really don't know what to do.. Just not at peace with the way life is...waheguru

I even took her to gurudwara twice which she happily came..I really don't know what to do..Any advice will be really appreciated... I am just not at peace..waheguru

Whereas I like another girl even though she is a Christian from another county (we have met twice). we have a very good understanding and she is even ok to be a Sikh but I know my parents won't accept her and I think it won't be right for her to be here.. Cause people are so judgmental here

I don't find her mature enough and she is very childish.. Even I do not feel talking to her much cause I know this relationship is like being forced on me....so its difficult to be at peace...I really don't know if I shud continue.

I got engaged with someone with whom I do not find connection.. Due to my parents forcing since I am already 36 and single...And they face lot of social flak. I don't feel like talking to her much whereas she wants me to constantly talk with her..but somehow I am not finding that connection...

Why is it that sometimes we drift away...When we know we have to merge with him...When we know we love him....Isn't love enough...Why do we still drift away

Thank you very much for your kind words. I hope the light keeps shining in me in you and everyone..thank you.. I am hoping and trying things will be better. But I feel bit drifting away. I hope I am pulled back towards him.

I don't know where to start from..but i'll try

I am a amritsar Sikh, and I have this strong feeling to love god.. Like really love him dearly. I don't do regular paath. But somehow I always feel connected to him. Sometimes I feel is it for real or is it that I just love myself that I can't get over it.

I am 35 and single, not been in much relationships, the few I had didn't work out..but my parents insists on me being married now so they continously looking for arranged marriage. I have developed a bond for a Christian office girl who lives in another country and we talk everyday. We even met at a foreign location and stayed together. Our relationship is really close and I am not hiding anything from her. We didn't had sex but we did make out....I do regret it a bit...but when I think of being loved and loving someone dearly..I feel it was a beautiful mistake..if it is a mistake..it was not out of lust...does that mean I am not an amritdhari now? Even though I like her we both know the situation is such that we will never be together because of cultural and religious.. but such was the feeling of being loved that we could not resist meeting...And it have left more feeling for being loved...I am very weak socially and it leaves me a big impact on thinking what others think of me.. On the other hand I have the pressure to be married so talks for arranged marriage are on. I really don't know or understand what life is...Sometimes I feel if I love god why I could not find someone to love and marry.... Sometimes I feel I really love him and he will always take priority so I don't know if I will love any other person... And sometimes I feel if I really loved him..And sometimes I feel like loving everyone..to pour my heart out..

I think I don't really understand life..Sometimes I feel isn't loving god enough. I am sorry if I said anything wrong.