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Is God just some form of energy ? Also if the God how most people perceive as is true, then y can’t prayers come true ? If prayer is just a projection then you r not really praying to God Ur just seeing it in ur own mind or whatever. Then what difference does it make to believe or not believe in God...

I know God is not sum guy up there o whateva but like... Idk I’m so confused ... so if a person is not religious at all .. can they still get on the path of enlightenment ... by meditating etc..

What to do when u feel so desperate and ur whole life is screwed ...

Easier said than ... :( How though .. how do I do that

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Will he help me :( I’m screwed

I can't believe it's been a year since I have been suffering in silence. I don't know what to do anymore and I feel desperate. We read the book Siddhartha and it made me feel lonely and more sad. I mean I always knew God is not a man up there but like...

Approximately a year ago I started watching sikhnet videos and stuff, life was good and all. Then this weird painful stuff started happening... now when I think about it does that mean "God" doesn't want me to get closer to him? Like what did I do wrong at that time... Since my perspective on prayers has also changed, I feel even more desperate. Umm like so when u pray ur basically praying to yourself :/? . I have also heard if u pray with a pure heart then guru will definitely listen to ur prayer umm who's guru? what guru? I haven't listened or did paath as I planned to do, first I don't wanna do it...second I know my life ain't going to get better with it and If i had been doing paath since all this stuff started happening I probably have already lost faith.

This is the crucial time of my life, college and stuff is coming up and I m over here screwed rn. I had so many goals in life but...

Do you imagine some infinite power or one of the gurus while praying? Also whats the difference bw guru and god?

I’m in so much pain idk what to do

Sry didn’t quite get it ...

I used to shave etc. , I’m going to cut my hair in the future ... and Rn I really need God to help me ...

I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I don’t want to be here in this universe. I wanna get out of here ?but don’t know where ? The fact that universe is constantly expanding and moving is also bothering me and giving me anxiety. I’m better when I’m at school cuz it keeps me distracted but sometimes it gets really worse . Worst feeling ever . If I think of dying , I still feel “stuck” because I’m going to reincarnate in the universe again . OmGgg what’s wrong with me .

I don't even know how to explain anymore. It's been a year and I have been living in vain and pain.The consequences it gave me made me so depressed. (I had 3.5 gpa and I had 2 years of hs left and i was trying to get a 4.0 but it got to 2.8 because the past whole year I wasn't able to study at all ) I searched up my symptoms and it apparently has no cure. I can't tell my parents about this and I am not going to. Also I found that u need long term psychotherapy or whatever. Also the more u talk about it the worse it gets so I m not trying to explain how it feels. The other things there are so many things going on at this point in my brain i dont know which one is causing which symptom. Guys I am so stressed in 2 months we r going to be applying to clgs and I m not even okay!! How m i going to handle all the college stress. I am not from a very financial rich family and being the oldest child, my parents r dependent on me. Also time is flying by too fast like way too fast and OMGG

Ok so I got forced to go to this wedding in a different country which is literally next week with my relatives (none of my family members r going ). And I can barely function due to this stupid dissociation/ depersonalization I have. Like I can’t sleep in car it’s so hard for me to sleep , I don’t know how to explain , the colors outside like whatever I see looks like the ones u click from Samsung phone (high contrast) and it’s so uncomfortable. (Like i sound so dramatic and the stuff I’m saying might sound like cr*p that’s why no one understands me like I’m in so much pain )

(Ps my doctors appointment is after the wedding )

I can barely function due to this ptsd or whatever I have and I don’t know how I’m going to survive :(we r staying for a week) 1. I have trouble sleeping like I can only sleep in extreme darkness and no-one else in my room with all the curtains and everything closed and stuff .( we r going in a car and staying at hotels ) 2. I don’t know anyone so most likely I’m going to be left over as all The other times and I’m already depressed enough like I’m going thru a lot rn And log other stuff like I can’t even think rn and I don’t know how to put it in words

I don’t know what to do . Obviously I want to get better like I want to face this and see what’s the worse that could happen but it going to be uncomfortable with my relatives , if only my mom could go with me ...

If I tell anyone now what’s happening to me , they r going to think m making excuses since I have been keeping all this inside me for a year now) plus we all know indian parents and mental illness .

I mean my aunt can probably understand me but I don’t feel comfortable due to some other reasons . Evehone is so excited that I’m going now I’m over here stressing . It’s literally next week and idk what to do anymore