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Okay. Just to make sure, it's not wrong to hide this from my parents right? And Guru Ji will forgive me even though I committed this sin many times and I couldn't stop. Sorry to bother you, but I just want to move on with Guru Ji and make sure he hears how much I want to change.

Okay, thank you. I'll try to ask them. I just hope my karma is gone and that Guru ji still trusts me that I'm trying to give up kaam and that I want to be close to him and not commit another sin. I just hope he forgives me

Is it wrong that I didn't tell my parents? I'm way too scared to tell them but I still feel horrible not telling them.

I'm a young girl, I started watching dirty stuff online and it kept on going for almost 2 years. I regret it and regret it. I always ask Guru ji for forgiveness, but I still fall into the urges. But this time I started to slow down a bit. I stopped watching kaam but I still sometimes think about it. Now I feel really guilty for doing so! I hate myself so much on why I would get attracted to kaam! I believe in Guru ji dearly. Everyday I ask him to forgive me breaking the promises on to stop watching kaam and even watching it. I don't know if I have been forgiven or not. Sometimes I cry and feel like I'll just end up going to Hell in the end and not meeting Guru Ji at all. I love Guru Ji dearly, and I can't live life if I don't know if he loves me or not. But I have been saying waheguru a lot and doing a lot of path and reading Hukunmana. But I still feel like I don't deserve all the things in life Guru Ji has given me because I'm such a horrible sinner on watching this dirty kaam. No Sikh girl would ever do such a thing like i did. I feel so guilty and heart broken. I even feel terrible for hiding this from my parents and I'm very scared to tell them because they will hate me for the rest of my life. Please give me an answer! I need some advice!