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I recently made loads of mistakes and made bad choices which have resulted in some difficult consequences, the weight of the regret and guilt and sadness have been crushing at times but now I have began to move on. However there are people in my family who are not so forgiving and instead are holding me to my mistakes and it feels like being trapped in this Dukh. I know I have sinned and I will never forgive myself for what I have done and the effect it's had on my family but I feel like I don't deserve to be made an example or to be kept down? I'm no way saying that I deserve forgiveness but I've been racked with guilt for so long I just want to move on, I'm fairly young and the people who arent letting it go are old. I just wanted to ask if this is right? I'm not condoning my actions but i feel I've had a fair bit of punishment. I just want to move on but it feels I'm not being allowed to? Does Mahraj Ji allow people to act like this as punishment?

Please forgive any mistakes I've made and please share any opinions because I can't keep going over it in my head again and again.

I know Guru Sahib Ji is closer to you then your hand but I feel so distant from MahrajJi it kinda hurts. I'm not sure what to do in order to feel closer to GuruJi, I don't know what to do? I keep wanting to go to Simran Jap at the Gurdwara in the mornings but I can't wake up in the morning then just feel guilty about it. Now I feel really empty and disconnected. I want to love WaheGuruJi Akal Purakh and eventually want to take Amrit but I can't even connect with the One that created us. I'm a sinner and feel hopeless, if anyone can share some advice or experience, I would really appreciate it WJKK WJKF Apologies if I said anything wrong

I'm in a difficult point in my life where bad actions and mistakes and being played out, my bad karmas and sins are catching up with me and the consequences of them is gruelling. I truly regret so much and have been trying to turn towards GuruJi as much as I can, however it seems like bad things keep happening as a result of my mistakes and sins so I began to have suicidal thoughts. I did an Ardas saying to WaheGuruJi that I want to die and had a plan in mind but I asked if WaheguruJi could protect my family, I then took a cyber Hukumnama, which told me that,

"The True Guru's Will does not enter into his consciousness, and so he wanders around, pursuing his own interests" MahrajJi then went onto saying "Those beings are wise who meditate on the Lord." And "O Nanak they are purified, bathing in the sacred shrine of the Lord." (There was more to the Hukumnama but those were the most striking parts - Raag Sorath Guru Raam Daas Ji Ang 652,653)

I'm just wondering can meditation really stop the consequences of my actions from playing out? How do I get away from being Manmukh? Please if anyone knows this Shabad or can understand it or how to alleviate my situation please answer this question.

Please forgive me if I've said anything offensive or wrong

How do you see God in all? Bhai Kanhaiya Ji's example is so difficult to implement. How do you look past the actions and thoughts of people and just see WaheGuru, especially when you can't see WaheGuruJi in yourself? Especially when you're a sinner and there are people who have went out of their way to hurt you, to deystroy you. How do you have compassion for those people?

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WJKK WJKF Checked out the YouTube channels and videos out there about Sikhi and Sikh history but want to know more then the basics, are they're any books or anything online about Sikh history or Ithihas (I'm not sure if I've spelt that right - please forgive me) that get in detail and are preferably in English? I suppose Gurmukhi texts would help practice reading Gurmukhi but English ones to start off with? Apologies if I made any mistakes

I've recently been thinking about life and stuff and really started to realise that I have a long way to go with regards to working of all my bad karams and sins and mistakes and I'm really intimidated by it. I'm not saying that there is a special formula for being released of the cycle of lives but I know that I don't want to have to come back into another life or 8.4 million of them for that matter. My question is, where do I even start? I'm not Amritdhari nor do I read, write or speak Gurmukhi or Punjabi so how does someone like me even begin to start wiping out my karma and start a path towards Guru/ WaheGuru. I think I saw somewhere that we're suppose to follow our Guru and surrender ourselves to our Guru in order to be shown the way, how does that work? How do I surrender to GuruJi? I find it difficult to connect with God and would also like some tips for that as well? Also I've seen somewhere that everything only works with Gurprasad and Guru's grace, does that mean we just wait for that to happen? Is it bad to chase after it? I know this is like a big ask but life seems really bland right now and I feel just lost and concerned that I'm not doing anything to figure out where to go from here, any GurSikhs who can lend an informed opinion, I would really appreciate it!

How do you give problems to your Guru to take care of? I've heard that this can be very powerful in solving situations in which you have gotten yourself into and can't get out

Not that I have but I was wondering how you'd go about coordinating that money? Would it go to charity or Gurdwareh? Could you keep any of it?

I'm wondering if it's best to slowly lower my intake of meat like eating it once as week or just carry on going cold turkey and keep it completely out of my system. Period.

When people say you should listen to your inner voice or heart or mind what does that actually mean? I don't think I'm in touch with any of these inner senses so how do you listen to these or even know they're there? And when should you use them, if they do exist?

I gave up meat to try and get closer to God, honestly out of fear. I need help from God and i thought becoming vegetarian would help. I'm struggling with it, I've been told to only give meat up when I'm sure I'm ready or else it's meaningless. I kind of want to eat meat but I scared if I do I'll get further away from God and I'm scared that bad things will start happening again, don't know what to do?

Is meditation solely repeating WaheGuru? Or is katha veechar meditation also and Paat meditation as well? From various Hukumnameh the overiding message that I get is to meditate so what are all the ways to do so?

I don't really understand what MahrajJi means by this, how can this be done?

The question seems silly but I just want to know how will I know that if I ask MahrajJi for help in my messes and mistakes and sins, how will I know MahrajJi has heard and how will I know when MahrajJi is helping? I know Sikhi is practical and encourages us to experience God so how can I know that GuruJi is helping and responding to what I have requested? I've let myself down so i need to know that Guru Sahib is helping and taking the reigns of my mistakes.

I can't imagine that I serve any decent purpose on account of how badly I've messed up in the past and well in the present as well. How can I ask MahrajJi my purpose and for direction and help?