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Vaheguru ji ka Khalsa, Vaheguru ji ki Fathe,

Please take the time o read this, I just want my story to be heard.

I have lived in a place where there is no turbaned sikh girl. I feel alone because need someone to understand me. I have been alone for at least 8 years. We, my parents, my brother and I went to India and on our way back I cried and cried because when I compared my life in my home country with India I felt really sad. I don't have anyone to talk to so I pretend to talk to My Guru, I mean my Guru is always with me, right? so I'm sure that my Guru will be listening. I am different but I don't want that to change because I LOVE my Turban. I look so awesome in it :)

I'm still in school and I have friends but they don't understand. There's nothing wrong with that but... I want a sikh girl that has the kind of attitude that I have towards Sikhi. I want to beable to discus the battles fought by the Sikh. I want to be able to discuss about the current issues in today's society. I want to know that there is someone that appreciates guys that have beards. I just think that the beard just brings out the personality of a guy and makes them look really handsome. All the girls that I know like clean, shaving guys.

But most of all I just want a friend to talk to about my family life and espacially sikhism. When we were at Harmandir Sahib in Amritsar, I met this really beautiful girl that was wearing a turban, well i didn't meet her but I said Fathe. I had tears in my eyes, that girl was the daughter of Guru Gobind Singh Ji, like me. I wanted to talk to her but couldn't. I mean how unique is the turban? I did't even know her but since she was wearing a turban and so was I we greeted each other with a polite nod and a huge smile as if to say Vaheguru ji ka Khalsa, Vaheguru ji ki Fathe. That was the most amazing thing that had happened to me and it was at Harmandir Sahib, my favourite place on earth! That was years ago and I now regret not talking to her.

you know typing all this actually makes me feel better but that lonely feeling of mine will never go away. I constantly do ardass to my guru about being able to talk to a sikh that is really in LOVE with Sikhi like I am. I hate being alone.

If anyone has advice please, please help me. I hate being lonely, I constantly find my self wiping away tears but I don't want to feel this way it is horrible. I hate feeling depressed. Is there anyone that feels the same way as I do?

I know that there are people who probably feel alot worse than what I do that why you hear about people commit suicide. I have thought about suicide but I'm Guru Gobind Singh Ji's daughter I am brave and courageous so suicide is just a past thought, nothing serious.

Apologies for any mistakes, please forgive me.

thank you,

Vaheguru ji ka Khalsa, Vaheguru ji ki Fathe.