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Ssa Group,

I feel really arkward doing this as I have never really been 100% true to my faith. I still am not just now but try to go Gurdwara on the odd occasion and chant Waheguru from time to time.

The reason I am on here today is because I was speaking to a member of the family who has noticed the change in my attitude towards life and the people around me. I am usually a happy, bubbly person and loves to see the world smile.

Every morning I would wash my face fives and chant Waheguru, although this one morning I felt really scared and tried to stop myself from saying it as if I wasn't meant to. Since then I have stopped and haven't felt right since, I stopped making parshaad on a Sunday and stopped doing my Parth.

I am really worried as I now feel I am causing problems for my husband and his family, I also have two daughters.

I was an ex smoker and drug user and haven't been the most decent of people, but I changed majority of those things since getting married and became respectful to my faith. I feel I have lost that now and really want to go back to the intentions I had, I keep leting God down and feel ashamed.

What advice can you give? Please