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I am a girl and im 16. I am done. i dont wanna live anymore. I am in pain. Idk what it is but Im tired and exhausted. I will try to make this as short as possible. I can't recognize myself, I have anxiety. You know how you feel stuck in a room.I feel like I am going to fall inside the earth's crust(ik i wont). I feel stuck in the universe. I feel so many other things. idk how to explain. It all started with me feeling like passing out to all this, all my physical tests are fine. The doctor referred me to see a psychiatrist but my parents never took me.I tried searching up my symtoms and i found dpersonalization idk idc i just wanna feel normal again. When this thing was bad i had to tell my family b/c I couldnt sleep etc. But then I started pretending to fine but I am actually not, only thing changed it i have less trouble sleeping. My parents started assuming stuff like I am depressed, or I have a bf or something related to that. It really makes me mad. I am not open to my parents like I am not comfortable sharing them stuff at all. I did really bad academically and everything like idc at this point i can work harder in the future. i just wanna get better. idk what to do. can god help me . i have lost faith tho. like idk what to do. i just wanna get drunk and die. uhhh

I am a girl and im 16. I am done. i dont wanna live anymore. I am in pain. Idk what it is but Im tired and exhausted. I will try to make this as short as possible. I can't recognize myself, I have anxiety. You know how you feel stuck in a room.I feel like I am going to fall inside the earth's crust(ik i wont). I feel stuck in the universe. I feel so many other things. idk how to explain. It all started with me feeling like passing out to all this, all my physical tests are fine. The doctor referred me to see a psychiatrist but my parents never took me.I tried searching up my symtoms and i found dpersonalization idk idc i just wanna feel normal again. When this thing was bad i had to tell my family b/c I couldnt sleep etc. But then I started pretending to fine but I am actually not, only thing changed it i have less trouble sleeping. My parents started assuming stuff like I am depressed, or I have a bf or something related to that. It really makes me mad. I am not open to my parents like I am not comfortable sharing them stuff at all. And they have their own problems and they fight and stuff . I did really bad academically and everything like idc at this point i can work harder in the future. i just wanna get better. idk what to do. can god help me . i have lost faith tho. like idk what to do. i just wanna get drunk and die. uhhh

I am a girl and im 16. I am done. i dont wanna live anymore. I am in pain. Idk what it is but Im tired and exhausted. I will try to make this as short as possible. I can't recognize myself, I have anxiety. You know how you feel stuck in a room.I feel like I am going to fall inside the earth's crust(ik i wont). I feel stuck in the universe. I feel so many other things. idk how to explain. It all started with me feeling like passing out to all this, all my physical tests are fine. The doctor referred me to see a psychiatrist but my parents never took me.I tried searching up my symtoms and i found dpersonalization idk idc i just wanna feel normal again. When this thing was bad i had to tell my family b/c I couldnt sleep etc. But then I started pretending to fine but I am actually not, only thing changed it i have less trouble sleeping. My parents started assuming stuff like I am depressed, or I have a bf or something related to that. It really makes me mad. I am not open to my parents like I am not comfortable sharing them stuff at all. And they have their own problems and they fight and stuff . I did really bad academically and everything like idc at this point i can work harder in the future. i just wanna get better. idk what to do. can god help me . i have lost faith tho. like idk what to do. i just wanna get drunk and die. uhhh

Everything feels weird and it’s really painful . I feel bad for dad . Now I wanna work hard and actually be successful in life. Whatever this is is not letting me and seems like this condition is chronic . I just want to get normal ASAP . Idk what to do .