Why can't I just back to a normal life ?
If I don't listen to Kirtan once in 5 hours my head start hurting like a hangover, and I feel very depressed.
I don't care about money, but my family has started thinking that I have gone mental :D
How do I go back to my normal life ? I once tried drinking with group of friends but when i was drunk my mind haunts me that these idiots are just wasting life/time and money on showing off
Why can't and how can I just be like I was before I started doing paath?
I mean I keep thinking subconsciously that people are lying to themselves and keep themselves busy is dumb stuff just because they are afraid of death.