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I dont know where should I go in life ahead?

asked 2017-05-30 10:11:40 -0500

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I am 28years old , from Delhi. I believe in baba ji, though i never saw any result instantly in life. I was in love with a brahmin, because i believe all humans are one and same, i dont believe in religions or caste. He passed away in 2015 and i was broken as hell. I didnt want to do paath because that was giving more tears to my eyes as if something bad has happened to me and i felt more weak when i used to worship or visit Gurudwara. Then i left going or worshiping.I moved to bangalore for job because of job & probably a solution to move on. I live very practical life and keep searching what is god because I see no evidence if there was any god, but i still somewhere recite "waheguru". I went to parties and got addicted to parties thing. Somebody asked me, do you wish to join a business you will earn lot and fulfill your family dreams , i said dont take me to any wrong path. He introduced me to his senior partners in a coffee shop and I am so scared of saying NO to anyone on this earth that I said YES to business proposal seeing Aunts, old people and young girls happily working there.I invested 1.5lacs there which was my last ever savings for my marriage. (FYI-total savings my family so far for 2more daughters to get married is-4lacs) .I took risk because i felt business looks professional and trustworthy. But now i realized in 3months that I m stuck in this business and not getting money, its not easy because you have to refer your friend to come into this business which i cnt do intentionally.So money has gone in water.Now i am getting offer for modelling shoots and all, i though I should recover money by doing shoots may be some decent shoots. And yea,when I told my family about business, they were as usual so angry on me (bcz as always I being youngest in home and as per their trust that I must be going on wrong paths) but I know my limits which they dont understand. Now if i will tell them about shoot, they wont trust me for anything and would again think wrong about me that I have taken another wrong step and so they feel like calling back to Delhi. I have no single penny,I dont want to go back to Delhi( I will feel i am behind bars), I cant live simple sweet girl life, i need freedom, but I am also feeling so alone to live in Bangalore, i miss them as hell.I dont feel like going to office and earn; I am hating everything. I think of committing suicide after every 7 days. Could anybody please tell me how can I make my family have trust on me or atleast let me do what I want in life as ... (more)

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answered 2017-06-01 17:22:19 -0500

Guruka Singh gravatar image

Wow. I think you need to take some time out and get your priorities sorted. Your mind is running in circles. In order to move forward you must understand what is most important to you. Your outer life is a reflection of your inner life. Life is not about satisfying others. In fact, life isn't about satisfying yourself either. Life is about serving and taking care of each other.

"Take care of others and let God take care of you."

You can't be the person others want you to be, and you can't become yourself until you know who you really are. So please, don't concern yourself with the existence of God. What matters is that the deepest longing of your heart and soul is drawing you to get real with yourself. Are you up to that challenge? When you become still, you can become clear. Now is the time to do that.

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Totally right, i should actually decide to look upon my priorities then only it will be vivid to take next step...Thank you so much for reading and answering.

soulsoul gravatar imagesoulsoul ( 2017-06-05 11:50:28 -0500 )edit

answered 2017-06-08 20:03:13 -0500

sanjlon gravatar image

Guruka Sikh Excellent answer!

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