How do i get over feeling unfulfilled
I have a new problem from the last couple of months that I never had before- there are certain times of the day (usually when I'm studying or in between tasks), I feel like my life is unfulfilled.
I used to be a workaholic. I filled up my life with school because I was afraid of failure. I thought if I didn’t work myself to the bone I wouldn’t do well, so I made it my #1 priority. Due to some serious stressors/other stuff, i ended up needing a break from school which was really good because i was already very sick from the anxiety. I refocused my life and got better. My priority is now my health, and working towards union with Waheguru. When I spend time at the gurdwara, doing simran, kirtan, prayers, etc. I am whole and fulfilled. My spirituality and health are better than they have been in my whole life... yet I am not happy. My schoolwork requires concentration so I can’t really focus and listen to paath at the same time. A part of me is saying that this emptiness is the fact that my work isn’t my life- so when my body is tired and wants to sleep, my mind says- “no keep working!” But i know that its wrong, so i am sticking by trying to focus on what my body needs.
Maybe it’s the fact that I love being around people, but my close friends have moved away and the rest are workaholics like I was. I just feel really tired/run down from doing this day after day- I wake up in the morning and i'm not excited about the day, although i do a prayer of thanks to God. I'm not really looking forward to anything unless it's sunday or wednesday and i get to go to the gurdwara and sit in sangat. lately i've been going every evening to listen to kirtan, but my work schedule (i'm working as part of the practical training for my schooling) is out of my control and soon i will be scheduled to work on sundays/evenings and i won't be able to go. i'm really scared the one thing i'm excited for is going to be gone. I want to be closer to God but I don't know what else to do. Any advice?