Gurfateh,

absorb yourself within sikhi, negativity within yoor life is a sign of your soul crying out for somthing better than what you are providing it.

those precious minutes of naam in the car is all that you are getting fed spiritually and frankley thats not enough but its enough to get you through the moment.

the best thing to do is find gursikh sangat, and would you look at that, guru ji jas already led you here. true gursikh sangat dont judge or discriminate.

there is allot of advice that i can give but its up to you to get rid of your anxiety through taking the medicine and that medicine would be naam. awaken early in the morning at about 3:00 or 4:30 or 5:00 which ever you feel is best for you wash and then start a nitnem.

NIT-NEM

WHICH DIRECTLY TRANSLATES TO DAILY ROUTINE

start to dealth into bani and meditate upon it, reflect on the last lines of japji. the salok;

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**> Salok:

pavan guroo paanee pitaa maataa Dharat mahat. Air (life force) is the Guru, Water (contentment) is the Father, Mother is the mighty Earth (gurmat) of all.

divas raat du-ay daa-ee daa-i-aa khaylai sagal jagat. Day and night are the two nurses, in whose lap all the world is at play.

chang-aa-ee-aa buri-aa-ee-aa vaachai Dharam hadoor. Good deeds and bad deeds-the record is read out in the Presence of the Lord of Dharma.

karmee aapo aapnee kay nayrhai kay door. According to your own actions, you are drawn closer, and are driven farther away.

jinee naam Dhi-aa-i-aa ga-ay maskat ghaal. Those who have meditated on the Naam, the Name of the Lord, and depart after having worked by the sweat of their brows

naanak tay mukh ujlay kaytee chhutee naal. ||1|| -O Nanak, their faces are radiant in the Court of the Lord, and many are saved along with them! ||1||**

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Hope that helped!

wjkk wjkkf !