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Okay, the 'problem' that you are going through is very serious. At times, yes sure, you can be jealous of people who might love God like you do. But what do you do with jealousy? Does it fester in your heart? Is that all you think about? Or does it inspire you to better yourself? Does it inspire you to have a much better relationship with God? You need to understand that God is EVERYTHING. You are just under the delusion that He is away. That he is far, far away from you. If you understand that God amalgamated Himself in the universe, that everything is his play, then you realize that jealousy is just foolishness. If you want God as your Husband, then make HIM YOUR EVERYTHING. TRUST IN HIM. LOVE HIM. LOVE EVERYONE, BECAUSE HE IS EVERYONE. If you think that God doesn't realize your jealousy, then you are a fool. Guru Nanak Dev Ji, himself said HE is one of God's soul wife. Does that mean that he would get jealous when others get close with HIM, no it's the opposite! Because you feel such devotion and love towards HIM, share the love and share the compassion. Like Guru Ji, give God unto others. Realize that he is never far away and don't be jealous. Guru Ji himself said that nothing good will happen to the envious. Guru Arjan Dev Ji had an extremely jealous brother. He tried many times to reconcile with him, but he never listened. It broke his heart that he couldn't see and love God within everyone. It just gave him so much pain. Don't be false, be true and be you. The real you. In terms of your husband, God always delivers. One day a GurSikh will come to you and you will fall in love with him. Not because of his looks, but because of his compassion, his attitude, his TRUTH. HE WILL COME TO YOU.