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Waheguru Ji Ka Khalsa Waheguru Ji Ki Fateh
First don't beat your self up, at a young age Kaam ( Sexual desire ) is really though and because your on winter break from school and got nothing to do your mind wants you to do these certain things.
You got to understand that this is quite a normal thing at a young age. Where exposed to so much and its easy to just go on the internet, and start watching things.
First be thankful that you realised what your doing is wrong, and you realised now you need to stop. There are already many suggestions on this website about watching porn and masturbation, look at those and decide which one is the best for you.
My advice to you is to carrying doing Path, keeping doing simran and do Ardas to Guru Ji to give you strength to combat the 5 evils in your body. Maybe set your desktop, tablet or phone wallpaper to something Sikhi related to remind you every time your about to do something just turn it off or close your laptop.
There are many videos on YouTube about this one channel on youtube is called 'Basics Of Sikhi' Click here, look at the many videos about this subject and go through the story of the gurus on there, so you use your time more wisely and feel stronger heres a link to some Click here.
Now remember that Guru Ji is very merciful and forgiving. When start to stop watching sometimes you will fall but remember to get up and keep battling on don't waste your time beating yourself up.
Try using your time wisely do some sewa, help people out, play some sports and try not to stay free.
After a while, when you controlled this with Guru Ji kirpa, take Anmirt again.
Regrading the situation with your mum, it really depends on your relation ship, either tell her your watching porn again and ask her to help maybe she can help you divert your mind.
Also keep in your mind that each girl is either a sister, mother or daughter and respect woman for who they are.
http://www.sikhnet.com/discussion/viewtopic.php?f=2&t=7568 Check out the suggestions on here really good.
Hope you win this battle ! and sorry for this long message
Also i don't think anyone on here will hate you.
Please forgive me if i said anything wrong or offensive
Waheguru Ji Ka Khalsa Waheguru Ji Ki Fateh