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Waheguru ji Khalsa waheguru ji ki fateh

I am 15 and I'm from England. I go to a diverse school in England and I'm the only Sikh girl wearing a dastar. I am trying so hard to follow my rehats and I control all of my thoughts at all times. However for the past year, I know year (way too long) I have had feelings for one of the few Sikh boys in my school. I barely speak to him, but whenever I do it's always about sikhi. My intentions are pure and I never have thought wrong, I merely want to be his best friend who I can talk to when I can. He's my age and he's in most of my lessons and he comes from an amritdhari background, I like him because he has such a friendly personality and he's overall just a nice person . However, even thought I try my ultimate best to control these feelings, I can't help but feel hypocritical and sin ful for what I am feeling. My friends know I like him, and they tease me all the time and it makes me feel so worse. I've been doing my ardas, but I would be so great full to hear what some other more experienced seva daars have to say. It's eating me up inside, but I would never put myself down for someone who hasn't sacrificed anything for me like our guru ji's have. Thank you please advise me if what I'm feeling is wrong and what I can do. I know family and studies and sikhi and God comes first, and it does, but i want to know if what I'm thinking is wrong