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What paath should I do so god can listen to my prayers and forgive me for the sins that I’m suffering right now for , what should I do when it feels like God has turned his back on me . It hurts so much like my life is like so good right now but i cant even live or enjoy it due to whatever I have (depersonalization or maybe a tumor) . Its like being thirsty and theres plenty of water but not having the mouth to drink it. This was my time to enjoy life and it really hurts. I do paath sometimes and listen to it but have lost all my faith. Its so scary, annoying and exhausting, I feel like one day Im going to completely lose my mental state or something. And no-one knows how much pain I am in, or what I am experiencing, I don't know what kind of future I have ahead. I just want to be normal and get on track with my studies. But I m scared, what if I will never get better and I meant to suffer my entire life. :(( God helppp

What paath should I do so god can listen to my prayers and forgive me for the sins that I’m suffering right now for , what should I do when it feels like God has turned his back on me . It hurts so much like my life is like so good right now but i cant even live or enjoy it due to whatever I have (depersonalization or maybe a tumor) . Its like being thirsty and theres plenty of water but not having the mouth to drink it. This was my time to enjoy life and it really hurts. I do paath sometimes and listen to it but have lost all my faith. Its so scary, annoying and exhausting, I feel like one day Im going to completely lose my mental state or something. And no-one knows how much pain I am in, or what I am experiencing, I don't know what kind of future I have ahead. I just want to be normal and get on track with my studies. But I m scared, what if I will never get better and I meant to suffer my entire life. :(( God helppp