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Guys I need help too. I'm from UK. I've sin. I've done something so terrible that Waheguru may never ever forgive me. I can't take the guilt anymore. It's eating me inside. It has already been a year plus we did this. We did this. My gf and I, we kissed and lusted each other in gurdwara compound while no one was looking. It felt so wrong so I stopped it half way. I don't know what happened to me. She touched me here and there too, likewise... I felt so bad. I cannot describe how much I felt. I have so much of guilt in me. I really can't take this. I can't stop crying. I sometimes even cry in the middle of the night. Not only that I have so much of anxiety and guilt. I love my Guruji so much. I've never done anything wrong in my life before. While my gf doesn't even have guilt, while I do. One day I found out she was using me, she did sexual activity with other guys.(more than one) I broke up immediately(she got a new bf the next day who's an amrithdhari), I was so heartbroken, I started drinking. I came back home drunk late hours everyday and crying. I told my sister what happened too. I can't stop crying whenever I think about it. But this is not about her, it's about me. I really need help. I feel like committing suicide at times. I can't take the mental stress anymore. My Guruji would be so mad at me that I disrespected Him. I can't take this anymore. I'm even crying right now as I'm typing this. I've talk to friends and family about this. I've done a lot of charity, donations. Even went to serve food for homeless people. I'm trying my best to make my Guruji happy with me again, but I don't know how. Help me. I beg you guys. Help me. I know I've sin, but pls help me. I cannot tell you how I feel. I feel like dying in the inside. Everything is broken in me. I don't feel like doing things, working or eating at times. Whenever I think of the incident, I just feel like I wanna pull the trigger over my head. I can't take this. Plss I beg you. Help me seek forgiveness. I need it or I'll never live in peace. Even my hands are trembling thinking of my sin. My chest burns in flame. My eyes in tears always. I need someone to guide me to seek forgiveness to my Guruji. I go to gurdwara and begged him for it most of the time but I'm still not happy with myself. Pls forgive me Guruji

Guys I need help too. I'm from UK. I've sin. I've done something so terrible that Waheguru may never ever forgive me. I can't take the guilt anymore. It's eating me inside. It has already been a year plus we did this. We did this. My gf and I, we kissed and lusted each other in gurdwara compound while no one was looking. It felt so wrong so I stopped it half way. I don't know what happened to me. She touched me here and there too, likewise... I felt so bad. I cannot describe how much I felt. I have so much of guilt in me. I really can't take this. I can't stop crying. I sometimes even cry in the middle of the night. Not only that I have so much of anxiety and guilt. I love my Guruji so much. I've never done anything wrong in my life before. While my gf doesn't even have guilt, while I do. One day I found out she was using me, she did sexual activity with other guys.(more than one) I broke up immediately(she got a new bf the next day who's an amrithdhari), I was so heartbroken, I started drinking. I came back home drunk late hours everyday and crying. I told my sister what happened too. I can't stop crying whenever I think about it. But this is not about her, it's about me. I really need help. I feel like committing suicide at times. I can't take the mental stress anymore. My Guruji would be so mad at me that I disrespected Him. I can't take this anymore. I'm even crying right now as I'm typing this. I've talk to friends and family about this. I've done a lot of charity, donations. Even went to serve food for homeless people. I'm trying my best to make my Guruji happy with me again, but I don't know how. Help me. I beg you guys. Help me. I know I've sin, but pls help me. I cannot tell you how I feel. I feel like dying in the inside. Everything is broken in me. I don't feel like doing things, working or eating at times. Whenever I think of the incident, I just feel like I wanna pull the trigger over my head. I can't take this. Plss I beg you. Help me seek forgiveness. I need it or I'll never live in peace. Even my hands are trembling thinking of my sin. My chest burns in flame. My eyes in tears always. I need someone to guide me to seek forgiveness to my Guruji. I go to gurdwara and begged him for it most of the time but I'm still not happy with myself. Pls forgive me Guruji