Are mistakes/sins part of our hukum?

asked 2015-01-03 18:30:29 -0500

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Is making mistakes and sins part of our hukum? How does Sikhi explain making mistakes. I really messed up and went into a wrong path, I forgot God, family and everything I was blessed with and took it all for granted and made huge mistakes. I keep trying to understand my actions and can't help thinking if I had made different decisions the outcome would be different. The regret keeps piling up and is a massive weight on my shoulders, because of this i keep thinking maybe these choices I made were part of my hukum, perhaps they were a result of bad karams from past lives. I know I need to face up to what I've done and stop excusing my actions but I just don't understand why I did them or why I didn't see that the consequences would catch up to me. I keep trying to look for answers in my head to get some kind of closure, I'm not looking for something to blame just for some perspective. I know all faults are my own but I really need to understand how we see faults and mistakes and sins and if they are predetermined or if they are what keep us from achieving our actual destiny. I really don't want to be subject to my mistakes and want forgiveness and to have a clean slate, how do I do that?