existence of god ?
asked 2014-10-31 03:58:28 -0500
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sometimes i fell that god doesn't exist. and whenever i feels like it, my mom who is far away from me (in India) scold me and explains me why i should not think like this. but i am not able to understand that why good and innocent people suffer the most in this world. i never fight with anyone, though i don't do simran and paath and i know its wrong but the reason for this is my busy life. everyone push me down just because i never took a stand against them. i never argue with anyone, whatever anyone say i just listen without arguing or saying no. that's why some people push me down. the thing is whenever i tried to took a stand and try to raise voice against anything which is wrong i failed. i tried everytime and i failed because of lack of courage. even if i try to develop courage in me, i am not able to do that. i wear turban, tie my beard and i have also taken the holy karha on my hand but still i feel they are of no use. sometimes i feel that babaji forgot to plant the seed of courage in me. he just made me a coward. god doesn't give me strength to raise my voice, he neither help innocent people. he always help bad people to push down others. innocent and straight forward guys always suffer. bad people are rich as well. god is not even giving justice to 1984 victims. he's not even helping sikh boys to get jobs of non- Asian countries like NZ and i am suffering from this as well. preference is given to clean shaved people. i can't get a job in the fast food industry because of my beard. i just satisfy myself by thinking that my time will come but i know it won't coz i have suffered from all this shit in my whole life. and after suffering from all these things when i came back home in search of some rest the other drama starts of pushing me down by other flatmates and i know i cannot fight against them and finally i think that my life has been f*&^$ up this whole shit will continue for my whole life.
i know that my question sounds weird but this is my unhappy and unlucky life. and this question will always struck in my mind that is god looking at all this ?? or is he just ignoring ? is he going to do anything ? or my useless, unhappy life will continue like this ?