In which spiritiual state i am in ? Is i am jeevan mukt ?
I have a family freind whose is a astrologer who told me that he can tell me somethings from my previous life.He told me that i was a Jathedar who was a Kathawachak as i was born in 1986 and i have a deep impact of 1984 Sikh genocide in my mind and always thinks of Khalsa raj from this i calculated that i have got martyred during 1984 -1986.
When i was in my mother's womb she was very depressed and used to recite Chopai sahib all day .
When i became 18 years old i started doing nitnem with lots of love and happiness.After a month i got baptized as Khalsa.I also started listening to Sant Singh Maskeen in which he told of Naam Japna,Gurbani and Sikh history.I listened to him with lots of curiosity and happiness.He told that there are three stages of Naam Simran when you say waheguru you should also listen to it( Dhun mein dhyan dhyan mein janiya gurmukh akath kahani).He said that first you should feel that the voice is coming from your throat during Waheguru jaap.In second stage you will feel that the voice is coming from your chest and in the last stage when the naam will strike the naval point(Dhuni) a person feels that he will die but infact the ego of a person dies and he becomes jeevan mukt.
I have been through these 3 stages and in the last stage i listened the voice of God from inside me that i have to protect my mother from her in-laws and have to prevent corruption and i said two times bole so nihal sat sri akal and everything became normal.Even after that i am a similar person as i was before having normal desires and feelings.
After 10 years i went to Golden temple and had a feeling that some divine power is helping me so in the parikarma i recited Waheguru asking hiom a question that which Divine power is helping me with closed eyes and Goddess Kali with four hands wearing a red turban gave me darshan.What is the Significance of it ?