Can’t get over someone
I can’t get over soemone. I like him since the past 2 years . It’s like a silent crush . Some obsession. All cause of the eye contacts . That don’t let me sleep . Which I think if I would be able to talk to him would make me calm and wouldn’t be excited/ obsessed etc all the time. Cuz I started to get feelings for this one guy then I get to talk to him then everything went away. I really don’t wanna have a crush on this person . I bet since the past 2 years I think of him 24/7. Probably skipped a few days .. . I did some stuff last year I tried talking to him on social media . Like everyday I would request to follow him then I request them request again tried contacting him etc . I regret all that .one of the really immature things I did was I put some letters in his locker which if I were to read em today gonna sound really dumb and immature . He was a junior at hs last year. Tough year for studies I feel so bad and guilty now that I distracted him . I shouldn’t have done anything. One of his friends told me that he said I’m annoying. He is not willing to talk . He has never texted a girl before . He doesn’t really talk to Girls . Doesn’t seem interested. He is very religious . He is good at studies etc . I don’t know anything else about him . So at the end of the year I put another letter in his locker which technically said I don’t like him anymore . I lied .Last year was messed up . Now I don’t know what to do . All Ik is he is never gonna talk to me ever . So if I tell him that I like him etc and all the truth all that can happen is he starts to kinda stare at me again we make eye contacts again . And the reason I don’t wanna do this is because I don’t wanna annoy or distract him this year . 2 years passed by so fast . He is gonna be at clg next year I can’t just forget him just like that. He was the only reason I got outta bed every morning happily and excitedly that I get to see him . And it’s not like I didn’t try to forget him . I really did . I would not see him at school for 2/3 days but he is still stuck in my brain . And then when I really tried forgetting him . Then after a few days all the feelings everything would come back and I have to struggle 2x times to try forgetting him again . It’s been so long I just can’t . I don’t know what to do
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