How to be determined for amrit vela?
Waheguru ji ka khalsa Waheguru ji ki fateh
I am a 20 year old Amritdhari girl. With god's grace I started to wake up at Amrit Vela and its been an year since I am following this routine. I was so determined to manage my routine. I never compromised with it. It was a necessity for me and It gave me a great sense of self satisfaction and happiness. Due to my ill health for about a month in winters, I was not in a condition to wake up this early. It broke my routine. Since then I am not able to stick to it. My stubborness really helped me eariler into following everything but now, I have loosen it a bit. I am still struggling to cope up. I do wake up at Amrit Vela still but I am not able to maintain regularity. Because sometimes when I am tired, I feel lazy to wake up. How should I recover what I was having earlier? Also I want to start meditation early in the morning before doing nitnem but as soon as I close my eyes I start feeling sleepy. What could be done for this?