It might not feel like it right now but you will be okay. It’s going to take a bit of time but over time you will heal. Try to build on your own relationship with God now. One of the best pieces of advice I ever got was to use Gurbani to speak to the mind. That’s important. It was reasonable for you to take some time to sort things out in your own head, and take some time for yourself when you needed it. Sometimes life requires us to take a step back before we can be fully involved with someone and give our best to the relationship. She must have not understood or have been hurt by that, and I can understand her side too. I cannot say whether you two will end up together in the end or not, but try not to focus on that now. She needs some time and space, and let her have that. It is important to respect her wishes. Maybe she is just hurting temporarily and needs some time to sort out how she feels, and in her own time may contact you. Maybe instead it is best for her to move on. She will have to figure that out for herself, but leave it to her. You don’t want to be in a relationship if she doesn’t love you back equally. It’s also not fair to force someone to be with you if she doesn’t want to anymore. If she knows you are sorry and you love her, there is nothing else to be said. It’s up to her now whether she will give this relationship another chance. You are still an amazing person on your own. Think about all your good qualities. I think if it is meant to be, God will guide you back together. But just use this as a learning opportunity and work on yourself. Grow. Learn. Some of the greatest parts of yourself come out of painful moments in our life. You will get through this. Try to surround yourself with people who care about you and remind you of what life is about.
In relation to your update:
Give her some time. Give her time to sort things out in her head and decide how she feels. I can understand you are anxious to get back together with her, but some time and space will help you both in being able to talk about things properly. Ideally you should wait until she contacts you again, but if you want maybe you can just wait a month, work on your own self and then try to ask her if she is willing to have a conversation about it without pushing too much.
