I am a 15 year old girl from england, i wear a dastar and try to follow the path of my guru. I sing kirtan and do my paath etc. However i dont come from a religious family. My mother can speak Punjabi, but i dont have a father. Growing up, i was never taught punjabi, therefore i dont know to speak it and im having trouble trying to learn it now. Im trying so hard, ive told my mother to speak punjabi with me,but i cant pick it up. Ive tried audible cds but i dont know what to do. I feel really ashamed of myself as i dont know my mother tongue and i feel really hypocritical to waheguru ji because i dont understand bani. Whenever i do paath or sing kirtan i always read it in gurmukhi, and then the translation so i understand. I always feel left out also, i feel like my elders look down at me for wearing a dastar and not being able to spesk my own language. Old women at the gurdwara often say to me that no one will want to marry me if i donr know punjabi because i wont be able to teach my children and they say its shameful, please help me, i really want to learn.