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I'm so sorry for the pain you must be going through. I was actually in a similar situation myself a couple months ago, so I can understand how difficult and heartwrenching that might be. I would try to talk to someone you trust--ideally someone who knows both of your personalities and can guide you accordingly. It can be really hard to talk about these types of sensitive topics, but opening up is really important, even if it's just to release all those bottled up emotions. I agree that if someone is thinking about suicide, to be on the safe side, you have to take it seriously and inform someone (as mentioned above). However, once you can be sure they are safe and being taken care of, don't be afraid to distance yourself if that's what you need to take care of your own mental health, because don't forget that that's a priority as well. It can be very draining to have to deal with all of this, especially when you are in a relationship, so don't be afraid to take a break to reevaluate and reconnect with your own soul. That doesn't mean you don't care about the other person, it just means you are giving yourself the love and space you deserve as well, if that is what feels right for you. I obviously don't know the specifics of the situation, but remember to take care of yourself as you are going through this process.

Also, this is a very beautiful and mature sentiment: More than anything I want him to be happy with life and at peace with himself more than I want him to be mine

I hope your situation has improved, and I wish you lots of love, strength, and courage to get through this. <3