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The problem here isn't about Halal meat or somesuch. The real problem is your guilt about doing something clandestine and the fear and excitement you have about your parents finding out.

If you are sincere and this is between you and your Guru, and NOT about your parents or the excitement and thrill of doing something in secret, then proceed, but first, question your own motives honestly

That said, proceed slowly, slowly. Don't focus on what you're not doing, but instead focus on what you can do and what you are doing. If your devotion is pure, Guru Ji will unfold your path for you.